chelle. we. dance?

Friday, December 11, 2009

pick flowers, not fights.

At last, my love has come along
My lonely days are over
And life is like a song
Oh, yeah, at last
The skies above are blue
My heart was wrapped up in clovers
The night I looked at you
I found a dream that I could speak to
A dream that I can call my own
I found a thrill to rest my cheek to
A thrill that I have never known
Oh, yeah when you smile, you smile
Oh, and then the spell was cast
And here we are in heaven
For you are mine
At last

at last (:

chelle we dance @ ;
2:13 PM;

Monday, November 23, 2009

starbucks & love.

am getting really jaded by all this studying. and the worst part is i know that i'm not ready, then again who ever is ready for an arts exam? but i am SO not even ready to pass. and yet i still spent last night having heart-to-heart-talks with my dearest nabbit and my morning indulging in beautiful websites of weddings and season 3 of gossip girl <3>

on the bright side, this studying period brought about joy (: joy in the form of starbucks and studybuddies <3 and that's what i'll remember when all the exam hoo-ha is over, not the exam questions, the "crap i didn't study that", the freezing MPSHs, the cheatsheets and the anxiousness.

and some people might write off gossip girl as a teeny drama, but it speaks to me. (: not the sheer decadence or their opulent lifestyles, but in the little acts of love. and i hope in 30 years, i'll still feel the way i do now about love and soulmates and not be jaded, like the way i am about my studies. (:

blair: how can you be so sure?
chuck: because you believe in me.

and some last random snippets:
1. the name chuck is really growing on me (:
2. i've been having weird dreams, maybe i should just blog out every weird dream i have, and psychoanalyze my dreams when exams are over and done with.

today's dream scenario:

"me and H are leads in a school musical (: he falls off the stage during his rehearsal and i forget all my lines and proceed to get scolded by the musical director."

chelle we dance @ ;
2:26 PM;

Thursday, November 19, 2009

ain't no other man but you.

supposed to be studying, dont really have a study schedule, but i think i'm behind! haha (: but somehow, this year's exams seem more relaxed. or perhaps more jaded. the so what mentality is just there, so what if i can't finish my readings, okie that is a bad thought to have! brawrgh.

been listening to all sorts of acoustic versions of songs and i think the guitar is amazing! (: not that the piano isn't, but you cant pack up a piano and move around. play songs randomly on the street.

and if you're out there studying and need some encouragement, here's ellen degeneres @ tulane university's commencement speech (:

(:

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia

now if only i could trade my sleep for study time.

chelle we dance @ ;
1:02 PM;

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all

Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord, to give up I'd be a fool
You are my all in all

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
Rising up again I bless Your name
You are my all in all

When I fall down You pick me up
When I am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name

perfect song for a new day (:

chelle we dance @ ;
2:52 PM;

am utterly amazed by people like Stevie Wonder (: whose song inspires me to continue studying though i'm tired. blind since birth, he has gone on to win 22 grammy awards! (: blessed man indeed.

Everybody's got a thing
But some don't know how to handle it
Always reachin' out in vain
Accepting the things not worth having but

Don't you worry 'bout a thing
Don't you worry 'bout a thing, mama
Cause I'll be standing on the side
When you check it out

They say your style of life's a drag
And that you must go other places
But just don't you feel too bad
When you get fooled by smiling faces but

Don't you worry 'bout a thing
Don't you worry 'bout a thing, mama
Cause I'll be standing on the side
When you check it out...Yeah
When you get it off...your trip
Don't you worry 'bout a thing...Yeah
Don't you worry 'bout a thing...Yeah

Don't you worry 'bout a thing
Don't you worry 'bout a thing, mama
Cause I'll be standing on the side
When you check it out...
When you get it off...your trip

Everybody needs a change
A chance to check out the new
But you're the only one to see
The changes you take yourself through

Don't you worry 'bout a thing
Don't you worry 'bout a thing, pretty mama
Cause I'll be standing in the wings
When you check it out

Don't you worry 'bout a thing

i realised that i can never love enough with my human love. another revelation at 2 in the morning. and it's all the more when i try to, that i fail. and yet i don't ever turn to You for help when i'm at my wits end of trying. i'm tired of not being at peace with myself, feeling insecure over the littlest things, tired of worrying bout the complexities human love brings.

through it all, i know You love me (:

chelle we dance @ ;
1:59 AM;

Sunday, November 15, 2009

“Are you the happiest and the saddest right now that you’ve ever been?”
“Of course I am.”
“Why?”
“Because nothing makes me happier and nothing makes me sadder than you.”

(The History of Love, Nicole Krauss).

whoosh. so much for hello readings, but yes. this one is from lings. (: spent 20 minutes re-re-re-re-re-re-re-re-reading breaking dawn in anticipation of the upcoming new moon movie (: and i had a small revelation.

i want to find you, whoever you are. you who makes me happier than anything else, and has the power to make me sadder than everything else, but hopefully does his best not to. (:

chelle we dance @ ;
7:24 PM;

agape.

just came back from family dinner (: mom is home and she apparently bought alot of bags but cannot show me while dad is in the house. hmm.

was bloghopping and came upon this entry from my dearest margit. hope she doesn't mind me pasting it here (:

"why is it we cannot obtain peace without God?

we all have a longing in our hearts. a longing for peace that things of the world cannot satisfy. for example, we all have anxieties. things that nothing and no one can fully understand. friends and family are busy about their own lives, they don’t have that perfect love to empathise, nor do they have the power to change anything. and sometimes, they make promises that they break, because they not perfect.

but with our perfect, powerful God, i know that anything is possible. i feel at peace because i know that He completely understands, He can change anything and He can be trusted. and i feel so powerful with the knowledge that He has my best interests at heart :) and whatever unfolds, it’s for my good.

this keeps me at peace. it’s a peace i cannot explain. "

i don't really know how i feel about the entry, but its comforting (: comforting to know that despite it all, our limitations, our imperfections, we need not worry because we have someone so perfect, so loving, so powerful to handle it all for us. instead of worrying, crying, complaining, stressing, i should just trust in Him. then again, trust is not an easy thing either.

in the meantime, it's goodbye gallivanting and hello horrendous readings.

chelle we dance @ ;
7:01 PM;

i thank you God for
most this amazing day.

what started out as a send bbf off at the airport, turned into a wonderful day off gallivanting in chili padi (: and luckily so, because mom's home and has re-claimed her car by throwing all my things out and putting back all her taichi swords. haah (: it's alright, i had the most lovely two weeks with chilipadi (red honda jazz.) (:

after having popeyes' with bbf and sending him into the departure hall, we took a trip down to the changi chapel museum, then to changi village, changi hospital, back to my place, goofed around with sam chloe's new camera, had teochew porridge and touhuay for dinner (: and then gallivanted all the way back home (: listening to music in the car, singing at the top of our lungs, and driving down tanjong pagar! (:

super lovely evening to start off the reading week. HAHA (: yes reading week.

just dance,
gonna be okay.

oh and on a sidenote, both of pooka joy's bday surprise celebrations went extremely well (: two surprises for the 22 year old (: amazing what kind of surprises you can pull together when you work with the right people (:

and im having party planning withdrawal symptoms : ( but, it is time for a surprise planning hiatus (:

chelle we dance @ ;
2:11 AM;

Friday, November 13, 2009

tea for two.

celebrated fel's 22nd with high tea at shangri-la's rose veranda (: absolutely lovely 3 hours spent which brought me out of my funk. was worried i wouldn't be able to enjoy it and spoil fel's bday, but in the end it was the best therapy ever (: we indulged in ONE HUNDRED AND TWO TEAS! omg 102 teas : ) sadly, we only got to taste 4, caribbean summer, roiboish chocolate heaven, soft peach and strawberry fields (: and all the food, salmon sashimi galore. and i dont even like sashimi, but whoosh, dunno what kind of salmon they had, it won me over temporarily (:

here are some pictures i stole from a food blog (:

and we were such high tea noobs! : ( hahaha eating so ungracefully amongst the flurry of angmoh wives and rich taitais, bored children with their ipods and a few business lunches here and there. not to be presumptous! haha but i think we had the most fun out of everyone there. everyone else looks so proper and rigid. OOPS.

happy birthday fel (: love you always xiaomei!

chelle we dance @ ;
6:31 PM;

Thursday, November 12, 2009

(500) ways we love peimin.

attempted to re-create peimin's favourite scene from (500) days of summer.

coupled with my favourite sparkly lights photo i found online.

plus alot of amazing friends who took time out to celebrate a very special girl's 21st birthday, and tadah (:

photos going up on fb like spitfire, but these are some of my personal favourites. one of the few events i chose to let others take photos, and attempted to stay out of photos. i feel oddly detached from the whole thing. worried and worried and panicked and panicked, tried to keep up with the party, but i cracked.

the only thing i know is that im so grateful for all the help i received (: friends who were there to break my fall. which makes me feel this small, because i didn't do anything at all. and i dont feel it. the whoosh at the end of a job well done. which only means one thing, i didnt do a good job.

did stupid stuff last night, which i only shared with xiaomei over high tea at shangri-la. just want to bury myself and not meet anyone for a good month.

get me outta here,
cos my eyes are burning from these silly tears,
that you brought when you showed me you don't really care.

chelle we dance @ ;
7:23 PM;