Today I will make a difference. I will begin by controlling my thoughts. A person is the product of his thoughts. I want to be happy and hopeful. Therefore, I will have thoughts that are happy and hopeful. I refuse to be victimized by my circumstances. I will not let petty inconveniences such as stoplights, long lines, and traffic jams be my masters. I will avoid negativism and gossip. Optimism will be my companion, and victory will be my hallmark. Today I will make a difference.

I will be grateful for the twenty-four hours that are before me. Time is a precious commodity. I refuse to allow what little time I have to be contaminated by self-pity, anxiety, or boredom. I will face this day with the joy of a child and the courage of a giant. I will drink each minute as though it is my last. When tomorrow comes, today will be gone forever. While it is here, I will use it for loving and giving. Today I will make a difference.

I will not let past failures haunt me. Even though my life is scarred with mistakes, I refuse to rummage through my trash heap of failures. I will admit them. I will correct them. I will press on. Victoriously. No failure is fatal. It’s OK to stumble… . I will get up. It’s OK to fail… . I will rise again. Today I will make a difference.

I will spend time with those I love. My spouse, my children, my family. A man can own the world but be poor for the lack of love. A man can own nothing and yet be wealthy in relationships. Today I will spend at least five minutes with the significant people in my world. Five quality minutes of talking or hugging or thanking or listening. Five undiluted minutes with my mate, children, and friends.

Today I will make a difference.

chelle we dance @ ;
12:53 AM;

there's a reason why i said i'd be happier alone.
it wasn't cause i thought i'd be happy alone.
it was because i thought if i loved someone and then it fell apart, i might not make it.

it's easier to be alone.

because, what if you learn that you need love and then you don't have it?
what if you like it and lean on it?
what if you shape your life around it?
and then it falls apart. can you even survive that kind of pain?

losing love is like organ damage.
it's like dying, the only difference is death ends.
this could go on forever.

chelle we dance @ ;
3:12 AM;

just the way you are.



what an awesome rendition.

hello world, it's been awhile.

chelle we dance @ ;
3:44 AM;

the rules of intimacy.

Where do you go with your broken heart in tow
What do you do with the left over you
And how do you know, when to let go
Where does the good go, where does the good go

Look me in the eye and tell me you don't find me attractive
Look me in the heart and tell me you won't go
Look me in the eye and promise no love's like our love
Look me in the heart and un break broken, it won't happen

It's love that breaks the seal of always thinking you would be
Real, happy and healthy, strong and calm,
where does the good go, Where does the good go

Where do you go when you're in love and the world knows
How do you live so happily while I am sad and broken down
What do you say it's up for grabs now that you're on your way down
Where does the good go, where does the good go

needs to stop fixating on one thing, and realise there are other things worth worrying about.

today's dream scenario:

"the entire choir is taking the same exam, but some think it's open book and others think it's a closed book exam. i end up getting kicked out of the exam to retake my exam at RJC. jerk number one comes along with me and i end up being entirely irritated by his company the entire time before the exam starts. my papers fly away into the rain, and i get drenched."

what kind of STUPID dream is this.

chelle we dance @ ;
1:38 PM;

be still. (:



Soon and very soon
My King is coming
Robed in righteousness
And crowned with love
When I see Him
I shall be made like Him
Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon
I'll be going To the place
He has prepared for me
There my sin erased
My shame forgotten
Soon and very soon

I will be with the One I love
With unveiled face I'll see Him
There my soul will be satisfied
Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon
See the procession
The angels and the elders
'Round the throne At His feet I
'll lay my crowns My worship
Soon and very soon

Though I have not seen Him
My heart knows Him well
Jesus Christ the Lamb
The Lord of heaven

it's been a long while, but listening to the song above just inspired me to blog something (: am constantly inspired by the idea of LOVE. the love of a father, from a boyfriend to a girlfriend, love that just loves irregardless of gender, the love of a friend, the love of strangers to others, the love of those who are difficult to love. that is possibly the hardest (: loving someone that isn't easy to love.

this has been a rather strange weekend of confessions in a park and trying to find my bearings back. but this has only reminded me that all things happen in God's time and for a good purpose. to be loved is a blessing and to go through hard times and find out that you are not alone, and that you are surrounded by people who love and support you is a blessing. to be able to start up a conversation with someone i've lost touch with because of this incident is another blessing (: and i just wanted to post this up to remind myself of that. and of course, sam chloe and pooka joy for seeing me through another one of those incidents im sure we'll be laughing about years from now.

listening to praise and worship music always calms me and soothes me. i am so thankful that i have a Father who loves me so unconditionally, that it is impossible not to share this love with those around (: i am ever so excited about Easter weekend and the weeks to come. (:

chelle we dance @ ;
1:13 AM;

pick flowers, not fights.



At last, my love has come along
My lonely days are over
And life is like a song
Oh, yeah, at last
The skies above are blue
My heart was wrapped up in clovers
The night I looked at you
I found a dream that I could speak to
A dream that I can call my own
I found a thrill to rest my cheek to
A thrill that I have never known
Oh, yeah when you smile, you smile
Oh, and then the spell was cast
And here we are in heaven
For you are mine
At last

at last (:

chelle we dance @ ;
2:13 PM;

starbucks & love.


am getting really jaded by all this studying. and the worst part is i know that i'm not ready, then again who ever is ready for an arts exam? but i am SO not even ready to pass. and yet i still spent last night having heart-to-heart-talks with my dearest nabbit and my morning indulging in beautiful websites of weddings and season 3 of gossip girl <3>

on the bright side, this studying period brought about joy (: joy in the form of starbucks and studybuddies <3 and that's what i'll remember when all the exam hoo-ha is over, not the exam questions, the "crap i didn't study that", the freezing MPSHs, the cheatsheets and the anxiousness.

and some people might write off gossip girl as a teeny drama, but it speaks to me. (: not the sheer decadence or their opulent lifestyles, but in the little acts of love. and i hope in 30 years, i'll still feel the way i do now about love and soulmates and not be jaded, like the way i am about my studies. (:

blair: how can you be so sure?
chuck: because you believe in me.

and some last random snippets:
1. the name chuck is really growing on me (:
2. i've been having weird dreams, maybe i should just blog out every weird dream i have, and psychoanalyze my dreams when exams are over and done with.

today's dream scenario:

"me and H are leads in a school musical (: he falls off the stage during his rehearsal and i forget all my lines and proceed to get scolded by the musical director."

chelle we dance @ ;
2:26 PM;

ain't no other man but you.

supposed to be studying, dont really have a study schedule, but i think i'm behind! haha (: but somehow, this year's exams seem more relaxed. or perhaps more jaded. the so what mentality is just there, so what if i can't finish my readings, okie that is a bad thought to have! brawrgh.

been listening to all sorts of acoustic versions of songs and i think the guitar is amazing! (: not that the piano isn't, but you cant pack up a piano and move around. play songs randomly on the street.



and if you're out there studying and need some encouragement, here's ellen degeneres @ tulane university's commencement speech (:



(:

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia

now if only i could trade my sleep for study time.

chelle we dance @ ;
1:02 PM;

You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all

Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord, to give up I'd be a fool
You are my all in all

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
Rising up again I bless Your name
You are my all in all

When I fall down You pick me up
When I am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name

perfect song for a new day (:

chelle we dance @ ;
2:52 PM;

chelle we dance @ ;
1:59 AM;